assalamualaikum w.b.t and salam sejahtera to all my friends

assalamualaikum to all my dear friends out there.salam sejahtera juga. .hahaha. how did u guys been holding up ?? so what to talk about?? hmmm do u guys have any ideas ?? please give me some cause i am totally out of it :) i done talking about my problems since that is the only thing that i have been thinking about lately, so i am going to talk about ENGLISH !! YAY :)  ( dah kenapa kan ?? )
so, i am MALAYSIA and my race is malay. our mainly spoken language or official language is BAHASA MELAYU. why am i stating the facts here. ok in English, my name is Intan Syafinaz Binti Zaharin . I am practically 18 years old. If im translating to my language. Nama saya Intan Syafinaz Binti Zaharin . saya berumur 18 tahun . so, u might see the difference between these two language. one is a language most commonly people would understand easily cause it is the world first language and on the other hand is my respected language which some people might not understand it at first. so,where am i heading right?? there are some "people" around me asking why i am usually speaks or write in English. hmm, firstly i would like to apologized to the "people" if u are feeling like i am some kind of arrogant b#**h that think so full of myself. they did ask me why didn't i wrote my blog or my status fb in my language.at least u did read my blog and my status,kalau tak mana tau kan im am writing it in English.haa kantoi disitu :). hmm the reason why am i using fully English is because i like it  and i love it. for u guys information. i am taking TESL or in its full name TEACHING ENGLISH AS SECOND LANGUAGE. So automatically i HAVE TO SPEAK IN ENGLISH. part of my practice. how am i going to teach my student (insyaALLAH :)) if their own teacher don't know how to. lagipun, its not that i speaks English all the time, on a certain occasion ok!!. it just that i don't understand, what is so wronggggg in speaking in English . rugi ker kalau kita belajar more than one language. what that i don't understand about these "people" is what is their problem with Malay speaks in English. if an Indian, or Chinese speaks in English, would u care about it. nope i guess. it is ur mentality that always so narrowed down in some alleyway of your mind that Malay should not speaks in English. what kind of rubbish is that man!! furthermore, English is my only extra language i learn. so, am i wrong if i just want to sharpen my language. if there is some foreigners come to our country and start to ask us, the local people about the interesting places around, would u like to see u shame faced when u didnt know how to answer it. even when i go to night market, there a certain business man there that know how to speaks even though just the basic, at least the know the importance of diversity rather than u "people". it not that i am forgetting my race, or my culture, or who i am when i started to speaking. noooo !! I AM STILL MALAY AND I AM PROUND OF IT. SAYA MELAYU DAN SAYA BANGGA MENJADI ANAK MELAYU :)there, are u happy.learning is fun guys. no harm in it. if u don't know how to do it, just ask..:)ramai org yang nak menolong.kita sama sama belajar kan .so,please don't be so narrowed, we live in diversity.be everything u want to be .selagi nafas masih bertunjang kita akan berjumpa lagi.assalamualaikum and nite peeps :)

assalamualikum warahmatullah hiwabarakatu

assalamualaikum semua and salam sejahtera to all my friends out there that read my blog and really actually read it. it is my honor for me when all of u guys take time to read my blog. haha.ok.so my post today is about what?? hmm actually today i would love to express my feeling rather to talk about what i like, what my dream and etc.so my second sem is already start. before the term begin i was actually very keen about going back to college. like seriously. no bluffing. i was excited about new classes, new environment, new cloth, and of course my friends. i've been longing to see them. when i entered my new class which is INTRODUCTION TO IT, i recognize the class smell (the dusty carpet.ha-ha-di-ha), people's chattering and stuff. of course i smile widely as i recognized all of my cohort friends. i started to scanning for a place to sit as my friends cant hardly wait to hug me (ok!!peransantan) . i can hear a huge gasp "peanut" here and there.ok for a moment i feel like a "huge" movie star as i hug each one of them. people keep saying how much they miss me. yess i really miss them to.with all the fight and stuff last sem, a huge hug and warm smile is really what i need.as hugging time is over (finally. i need to catch my breath too :) )  i sit down and the class start by lecturer divide us and want us to be in a group of choices.i already made my mind to be in what group.ok move on. i thought that i would be happy meeting all my friends but i guess not.hmm why did i say that. first some of my friends ask me why in my past break i have been shutting myself out for quite sometimes. i dont mind that question actually because that is my intention to shut myself out from the SIBER world for a moment. as i said im trying to find myself back. then, someone come and said that i have been a snobbish person and i dont want to friends with, hmm let just call that person "M" ok,sambung balik, said that i dont want to be friends with M again. that is not the truth.not even the slightest. ok mungkin i didnt greet M like any other because i tak nampak diaaa !!.so please dont blame my eyes power for not being able to see u in what 100 + plus students.yeah,my bad.sorry and to top it off, my other friends,let call 'D' shall we,so D text me and asked me the weirdest question which did i feel mad at him. i was like "what the fish and chip mannn " !!!!. D said that i was like mad at him and i am dumbfounded at that time. so,we sort it out after several conversation.hmm but i feel quite touch about these friends kind of thing. it is not my INTENTION as i repeat not my INTENTION to hurt any of my friends or neglect them. i wish to cherish all of u guys as i loveeee u guyss soo much. so i guess sampai sini je la. just feeling to express a little bit about my deeply hurt feeling. so,seperti biasa,selagi nafas masih bertunjang kita akan berjumpa lg :)assalamualaikum w.b.t and good nite peeps

assalamualaikum w.b.t

assalamualaikum and salam sejahtera to all of my friends out there. How your guys enjoying ur holiday. It must been such a happy time for u guys right??ok so today my post would be about my dreammmssss guy :). So,guys please roll ur sleeves up, haha ok syafinaz minah perasannn !!
so,basically the first character that i would find interesting is by their laugh or their smiley. I would be drop to death especially if they have such a charming smile which i found out that guys very rarely to show it..seriously girls would definitely fall for that.ok maybe me alone would fall for it but is just that smile is the best cure apart from solat and al-quran. ok kalau tak percaya just take a look at it ok

ok, i take to my full note that some of u dont know this so-handsome-i-wanna-dieeeeeeee- name.this is my little edward cullen.ooh his charmingly smile is going to make my heart explode.like seriously

another smile that i have a headache while looking at it. not a bad headache but of course a smile that can make me smile.ha-ha-di-ha :).

kalau nak diikutkan banyak lagi lelaki especially character from certain movies like HSM3.Not that i fancy that movie but i like one character in it which i kinda forget his name.ala adik yg si blonde tu.senyuman dia mmg cairrrrrr ~~~

ok the seconds characteristic that i wish my dreamsss guy posses is the mysterious-ness in them.hahah.meaning that guy have something within himself  that he doesn't wanna show to everybody. well, i like MY GUY to be have those character.Its like they have aura - aura seksi.hahaha.ok im crazy.

Next,my dreammss guy must know how to shut me up.ok, i am a debater. no matter what people tell me if i dont like it or if the facts is not good enough for me i would stand for my right. I might inherit form the way that my family raise me. and please don't take me wrong. Its not that i always wanna win. If that facts is the truth i would like to fall back. That why i would love my guy to have a strong opinions about whateverrrrrrrrrrr the world are talking about. hahaha .simple as that. but mostly the guys that i have meet,everyone of them is likely to let me take the situations which is to tell u the truth kinda boring and not exciting. Girl like me like to, what in malay term -DIPIMPIN- so jangan lah cepat mengalah.this is apply to everybody out there,if u believe in your stand,FIGHT for it and dont give up.people will not likely take u seriously..like SERIOUSLY.ok lastly.i love ,my dreamsss guy to have a sexy voice.not a deep one that really make u goosebumps and all but a nice one that really soothe me at anytime hahaha so,that it that come up in my mind right now.If there is anything that i would to add up,i will love to keep u guys updated ok.so,till i meet u again.seperti biasa,selagi nafas masih bertunjang,kita akan berjumpa lg.assalamualaikum and toodle

assalamualikum w.b.t

assalamualaikum and salam sejahtera to all my friends out there. how yall been holding. haha. I hope u guys living a peaceful life and insyaALLAH a bless-full life. I am actually in hoping to actually stumble across it one day. Habaq kat ceq sikit sapa yg tak nak hidup yang tenang kannnnn ?? :)
so today my post is actually ada kaitan with my last entry. I did say something that make me want to share with all of u guys today. So, my post today is about "OLD "

i love this picture so much. He look super duper cute aren't him <3

 this motorcycles look really super cool. i want to ride it can i :)

 this car is mine <3

ok. the reason why i love OLD thing as i mention at the above is becauseeeeeeeee.............~~~~~~~~~

IT JUST THE WAY I AM FOLK. I CANT CHANGE WHO I AM REGARDLESS WHERE I AM . HAHAHA. i know u guys must be thinking that i' am weird for liking something old. Even some of my friends kept saying that i am an old folk. The way i talk, the way i act, the way i think. ok. lemme tell u guys something. I live with a single mother whom my father passed away for 12 years, live with a sister and a brother that have a seriously too gap in our age, but we close as ever (thank GOD ) :), live with my beautiful as ever grandma. so i just guess my family gave me a big influence on how to live my life. And i like the way i live in it. Some teenagers just have fun outdoors and don't appreciate people around them the way it should be. i also like guys from ancient movies. they seems can sweep me off from my feet. aww <3. haha. ok i should stop talking about guys. what wrong with me. so i guess that it about my post today. if i have anything to say i will post it here ok :). so selagi nafas masih bertunjang kita akan berjumpa lg peeps :). assalamualaikum semua :)

assalamualikum w.b.t :)

ok assalamualaikum and salam sejahtera to all friends out there. first of all, i just wanna say, "FINAL DAH HABISSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~ YA BEDA BEDUUUUUU. OK DAH STOP!! annoying little girl.haha. ok all my peeps out there, alhamdulillah my first sem already finished. When looking back at those precious moment, feels like it slipping away so fast. When we still in high school, time didn't jealous so much with us, righttttttt ?? ok whatever.
After all this while, for about 2,3 month i' m  not updating anything to my blog because lately i have been so busy. With studies, lectures, notes, quiz ( not that i get the result with flying marks) , friends, families and stuff. But first i would to like to post my gratitude to ALLAH s.w.t for giving me the chance to learn a new thing. Even though i didn't know if i still live till the next second (haaa !! ). 
ok, so what is my story at this late morning (mind u guys that its 6.01 in the morning and i still didn't get my sleep because FINAL DAH ABIS LA WEIIII !! tak payah nak kalut sangat la tido awal kan ..hehe.ok , back to my business :). so what am i going to talk about now, today?

As i open up YOUTUBE to search for NEW HIT SONG LA KATAKANNN like jb,selena gomez,lfmao and etc. But sadly, it didn't caught my interest. i keep changing song after song and don't know with what i am looking for (pathetic right). Suddenly, as i scroll down i ter"accidentally" klik on SUNGHA JUNG, a very talented young boy who could play an instrument like ukelele, piano and maybe guitar i guess. He is soo damn good at it and i kept on pressing the REPLAY button. He has that "in thing" within him that make him so special. i even make an entry for him. Could u believe it. haha. But i guess he just deserved it for being able to bring the instrumental music alive to me. when i kept hearing the tune, it gave me a calm feeling like the world is now at peace, and i don't have to worry a bit about it.. he is so freaking awesome.Like seriously. i have been the instrumental fan since like my sister introduce me to it since i was 14 years old if i am not mistaken la :).some says that im old, but i guess i just love old things.it just me.get on with or just leave it.boo yahh. haha. . she said that it can bring my smile and yes it true. but unlucky, since i enter MSU, i haven't been able to hear it as i used to because too much new things to learn that i kinda forget about the old one, the old me :(. I know i have change a lot. Like seriously a lot. i didn't know from where and what to begin and i miss my old me. My old me was so much much naive and always with her little enthusiastic. What i am trying to relate with that talented boy is that when i hear the music and tune and everything, it remind me back who am i am before. how much i have change that i don't know whether its good or not. Even i still in progressing in understand it. Changes is good but sometimes the old one so much better. I am actually looking forward to come back home as i want my old me to get in back again to my body. i want it back badly. haha. ok that its i guess. i am actually spill the beans more than i should.haha. ok up there is a little something to anybody who read this and actually "LOADING" it. Much much appreciated .so guys please enjoy the music~~ :).chow and assalamualaikum and salam sejatera. selagi nafas masih bertunjang, kita akan berjumpa lagi. insyaALLAH :)

assalamualaikum warahmatullah hiwabarakatu

ASSALAMUALAIKUM and SALAM SEJAHTERA to all my friends

today my post would be 

"DONT JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER BEBEH!!!"

kenapa aku nak post benda tu harinie??

nice question actually..

even aku sendiri pun tertanya - tanya. ok, ni sebenarnya jujurla dr pengalama aku sendiri n klau boleh aku x nak yang kat luar sana akan terkena benda nie because seriously ITS HURT TOO MUCCCHHHH!!!.aku mmg geram n i quickly(not so la) grab my lappy n express my anger toward blogging..guys its called sublimations ok.hahaha..mana pulak dtang COUNSELLING AND GUIDANCE plak kan..hehe

ok back to business, manusia zaman aku notice mmg suka JUDGE from the OUTSIDE n not really on the INSIDE..padahal INSIDE tu la yang paling penting..x kan hanya kerana MUKA yang LAWA, BADAN yang HOT,org nak neglectedkan benda yg pling penting tat is personality. seriously la,tak kan because of korang pun nak tumpang popularity org yang dah HOT tu,korang sanggup sakitkan hati org lain.........kan??????

ok,people have feeling.duhh.its a basic thingy..even kau yg sakitkan hati org lain pun kau ada feeling gakkan..

i really dont understand people lagi - lagi yang cakap "I DONT JUDGE PEOPLE. I AKAN TENGOK PERSONALITY DIA MCM MANA DULU..IM NOT A JUDGING PERSON K:)"..

SERIOUSLY BULLLLLLSSSSHHHIIIIITTT!!!!..ok i know bukan semua org mcm tu but kebanyakkan ok

kebanyakkan means mostly so kira ramai la..mungkin kalau buat percentage i can predict peratusan dia mesti 60%..seriously people,kenapa kita kene judge..y dont u see people through what they are n not from the outside..cause sooner or later,yg outside its not going to stay forever..even make up boleh cair,muka pun boleh kedut,perut pun membuncit..

do u see my point..if u want to know someone,know them from the heart n from the outside..

lagi satu please la dont be hipokrit..kalau mmg u r born to be a JUDGY,jgn habaq kat org lain "PLEASE DONT JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER"..NOT COOL PEOPLE!!!

till then selamat berjumpa lagi..selagi nafas masih bertunjang

assalamualaikum w.b.t:)

assalamualaikum warahmatullah hiwabarakatu

ok..today post..WHY??
ada banyak persoalan tu keluar kat benak aku mggu nie
aku rasa mggu nie pun mcm roller coaster
aku experience benda yg aku x pernah alami sebelum nie
BUTTTTTTT.aku kena buang jauh2 benda tu sbb ia akan buat aku makin terseksa..
4 tahun tu dah cukup la
serius aku dah trauma..n aku x nak lagi dah
so..this post actually is more muhasabah 2 me..
INTAN SYAFINAZ HWAITING!!!!

assalamualaikum warahmatullah hiwabarakatu

assalamualaikum w.b.t and salam sejahtera to all my friends outhere..:)
first of all..i would to say THANK YOU SOO MUCH FOR FOLLOWING MY BLOG:)
rasa mcm x percaya jugak sbb my first intention nak buat benda ni seriously bukan nutuk tatapan ramai neither untuk sesapa follow.but then bila dah buat BLOG~ mesti lah jauh disudut hati di tepi -tepi celah sudut yang ala2 gelap sikit 2 nak org baca kan(sorry if im just make u feel headache by just reading it~my bad)
ok back to my post..hahaha.today i feel so rajin nak tulis..actually idea tu dah ada for 2 weeks cuma x terluah kan saje,lgpun last week is the exam week..mmg x do maknonya lah bukak blog padahal banyak lagi nak kene baca
so my mood today...i feel DROWNED~~!
why syafinaz,why..??haha..x yah nak kalut sangat la kan..ok2..i tell u u guys..sabarlah..tak yah main tolak-tolakkan:)

this is me!!..

kidding guys

seriously bila cakap sal drowning mesti semua orang ingat im feel tired,depressed,tension and etc

yes..mmg for couple of the weeks back then i did feel like that.seriusss!!haha..eventhough i laugh,smile,crazy with my friends but perasaan kat dalam tu ALLAH AZZAWAJALLA je la yang tau..balik2 hostel jer rasa mcm nak nangis..even lalu kat bawah jambatan kereta tu,i feel very lonely~lonely,im so lonely,i got no body,on my own~haha..k2,tapi 2 mggu lepas k..

this pictures however when i look at it,i feel at peace,at serenity,feeling all my PROBLEMSSS!! mcm berenang pergi..haha..this picture tell me everything eventhough gambar dia just mcm 2 jer.

it like when u reach the UNDERWATER, u have come to another dimensions,another world,another place where magical seems nothing impossible ala mcm cerita MERMAID tu where ariel sbgai pelakon utama<3

so,when i look at this picture..i feel nothing is impossible..sbb kalau budak 2 boleh berendam tapi still look pretty,I COULD ALSO DO THAT OK!!~

hahahaha!!sorry2(background lagu super junior-sorry2 naik lori)

so, what im tryig to say,conclusion dia la kan..if u feel like DROWNING,call me..haha tak,tak..gurau2

so if u feel like it,please dont let it drown u too long..meaning,when u stumble,jatuh terduduk semua..U CAN RISE TO THE SURFACE BACK!!..mmg pemandangan kat bawah 2 lawa sesangat..tapi pemandangan kat atas lagi lawa..only u can really appreciate it when u know how hard for u to get wat u want..i already experience it..rasa mcm welaweyh..mmg best..hahaha..n mmg mals nak naik ke permukaan balik sbb nanti jumpa sotong,ikan yu,whale n etc meaning obstacle la,but then kalau x der halangan..ganjaran dia not going to be so sweet..rite??

so please u can do it if u think u can do it~(apakah??)

so,selagi nafas masih bertunjang,i will meet u again guys

assalamualaikum n salam sejahtera..dont be naughty!!nakal je boleh..hehehe:)

assalamualaikum warahmatullah hiwabarakatu

assalamualaikum w.b.t and salam sejahtera to all my friends out there
k..apakah post aku hari nie??
ok..jumpa dah..aku nak cakap sal pemakaian hijab..yessza!

ok everybody..this is hana tajima- simpson

sapa yg x kenal dia kan

she like thE ROOT OF NEW PEMAKAIAN OF HIJAB..THE KING OF THE JUNGLE:)

haha..ok kidding

ok!!she;s beautifull..everybody know that:)

ok..sapa pulak dia nie..hehehe..inilah maria elena..the vlogger

ok..korang mesti tertanya2 y i put all their pictures in my blog..treng teng teng..jawapannya adalah

for me honestly,inilah wanita2 yang nampak sngt cantik apabila mereka insan2 terpilih nie pakai the new way of hijab.

not all the girls nampak ok ngan kene ngan muka bila pakai mcm 2,but diorng dua nie mmg lawa pakai..

seriously,i did try once pakai mcm diorg..hahaha HANCUR!!

ok seriously MALU..but then lebih baik kita mengaku kesalahan kita drpada hide it rite??

so,diorg dua nie mmg icon fashion for me...

both of them rajin nak buat kelas on how to easily wear the hijab with the minimum usage of pin only THREE..3..

unbelievable..:)

so for all the girls out there..please don't be hesitate to wear this style cause it might show korang punya inner beauty like those two girls upthere..but if u feel uncomfortable or u feel that the styles might choking u to death(like me..haha joking)..jgan pakai..nanti jadi mcm i,koyak sikit dah shawl 2 n now shawl 2 jadi my new BLANKET!!

hahaha.for HANA TAJIMA and MARIA ELENA

if u guys bacalahkan post nie(kalau..huhu)

if ada styles baru please teach us the girls ..hahaha k 2 jer..

so guys.bye2 n assalamualaikum..selagi nafas masih bertunjang kita akan berjumpa lagi:)

assalamualaikum warahmatullah hiwabarakatu

assalamualaikum w.b.t and salam sejahtera to all my friends

so guys,what do u think about this entry

pernah alami this kind of experience??

mmg sedih kalau org yg kita suka cakap mcm apa yg dialog diatas berbunyi

malu pun ada because our dignity jatuh mcm 2 jer...x kisah la perempuan atau lelaki but mostly perempuan la  kan??

tat y bila ada certain2 perempuan ni malu nak berterus terang kekadang sbb kitaorg takut akan jadi benda yg kita x harapkan like REJECTIONNNN!!

but then,that what we call LIFE, bila kita jatuh berdebuk - debuk

2 lah experience yang akan mengajar kita,like -GIRLS-OUT-THERE-PLEASE-DON'T-DO-IT FIRST-LET-THE-GUYS-DO-THEIR-PART:) thingy

tapi akan keluar satu persoalan yg baru iaitu "mcm mana kalau kita terlepas org yg kita suka 2??"

pulak dah

saya pernah tanya kakak sedara saya yang bernama SAKINAH SULAIMAN yang sedang belajar di uia sekarang

saya tanya "kak, x per ke perempuan nak berkenalan ngan lelaki yang bukan ajnabi(lelaki yg x der pertalian ngan kita mcm adik - beradik,suami,ayah n etc)\

maka kakak sedara saya pun menjawab,"x per,asakan kan ada batas2 pergaulan n perkenalan 2 mmg ada org ketiga yg tlg transfer kan maklumat semua"

so, kalau kita suka kan someone just pray to GOD yg - DIA adalh jodoh kita..

x kan lari gunung dikejar kalau itu yg ditetapkan..betul x semua??:)

so semoga kita akan berjumpa dgn jodoh yang diingini (insyaALLAH), 

semoga berjumpa lagi di lain hari..insyaALLAH

*apa2 sahaja maklumat kat sini yang salah silalah betulkan,sbb saya bercakap dari ilmu yang cetek,hope this not offending anyone*:)

have a nice weekend everybody

assalamualaikum warahmatullah hiwabarakatu

assalamualaikum warahmatullah hiwabarakatu semua umat islam sedunia n salam sejahtera to all my friends

alhamdulillah, dah masuk bulan puasa bulan al - mubarak:)

yay.. hepi sgt sbb this is the time that i can see whether i could tahan nafsu or not.

alhamdulillah, semuanya ok..

walaupun masalah aku yang satu nie x selesai2 agi, tapi aku dah mula on track balik.. rase mcm ALLAH bg ujian msti sbb aku ader buat salah, so no complaints here

memandangkan dah masuk jugak bulan puasa 

i just nak wish everybody selamat menunaikan ibadah puasa..hope taun nie dapat puasa penuh(insyaALLAH)

harap tahun nie juga akan banyak amal kita semua dalam mencari keredhaan - NYA.

just wish u all have a peaceful life..amin..

so jumpa lg jika nafas masih bertunjang

insyaALLAH

assalamualaikum n salam sejahtera

assalamualaikum warahmatullah hiwabarakatu

today i feel young:)

today saya rajin nak buat keje ka t library

but because of ahilan steve, satu kerja pun x jadie..

these last few days

i feels..

i dont know..

perasaan bercampur baur..

rasa nak jeritpun ader gak

tapi nanti org kata gila pulak kan..

assalamualaikum warahmatullah hiwabarakatu:)

assalamualaikum warahmatullah hiwabarakatu

alhamdulillah, akhirnya minggu yang menyeksakan jiwa dan batin aku nie akhirnya sudah berlalu

ffuuuuuhhhhh

walaupun tak dapat selesaikan semua benda dengan jayanya..tapi aku dapat rasekan satu  beban dah terlepas..

nak ucapkan mekasih yang x terhingga kepada kakak wan hani, jasmin, hazwin, syuhaida salehi, maisarah, amir izzat, fariza, intan norzalifah,alea atiqah n my mother sebab sentiasa memberi bantuan dan sentiasa bg semangat tanpa jemu

aku pun baru jer lepas kemas hostel kat sini..lapang sikit pala aku..

so..aku raser nukilan kali nie mungkin sampai sini sahaja..aku x der idea nak menulis..

so, sampai berjumpa lagi di lain hari..assalamualaikum..

assalamualaikum warahmatullah hiwabarakatu:)

assalamualaikum..today im feeling sour, bitter and moody..:(

there is like full of "WAITING-TO-DO-LIST" in my mind that i need to do done with

antara calon - calon yang tersenarai ialah:

1. I need to check my hardisk

2. I need to send an email kat sarah bout our assignment

3. I need to complete my pendahaluan and pengenalan on tokoh islam by TOMORROW!!!!!

4 . I need to revise for mid sem..hola

ok.. it seems mcm x banyak, but the amount untuk complete everything is like WHATT!!

nak selesaikan satu, i have to wait for the expert tuk tolong tgok - tengokkan.

N I HATEEE WAITING.. nanti my hypertension aku datang balik.

semalam dah terbukti aku mmg gila. aku n my roomate mcm x betul, melalak..aaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh..gelak mcm pontianak. tido pagi2(yeah..i like that), bangun like 5 hours later with swollen eyes, red nose, clattering teeth(sejuk sanagat). n go straight to the class yang bermula pada 8 pagi(YEAHHHHH)

then my moody dah start rising balik. kelas tgah riuh2 aku sorg je yang mcm ape tah..aku tido sebenarnya(ngantuk sangat kan) 

then tengah dalam perjalanan ke mimpi yang pasti, ada org "tersengaja langgar aku"(saje la 2..main2)

so aku terbangun, nthen amir tanya aku satu soalan yang sangat memngegarkan emosi aku

"peanut,r u ok??"

yg kelakarnya aku terus nangis..malunya,,so aku pergi la tandas..cover balik..jalan ke kelas pun tunduk2 x nak bagi org nampak

then today,  barulah aku teringat, TODAY IS MY DAD BIRTHDAY..

amin,alhamdulillah

so, memandangkan my dad cant hear me straight, this is something bonus here

i just want to shout out

dad, selamat hari jadi. i just hope u up there will be very happy (insyaALLAH)

i will pray for u each single minute of my breath.

i love u soo much and i miss u soo much

thanx for making me who i am today.

there is no words that i can describe u just to say that u r my heart.n i will remember u forever..

insyaALLAH, we will be together soon will all our family k just wait for me up there :)

with love 

intan syafinaz zaharin:)

 

assalamualaikum w.b.t

Assalamualaikum warahmatullah hiwabarakatu..salam sejahtera...

Hari ini entry bertarikh 9 JULAI 201I, SABTU

Hari ini merupakan hari untuk menenangkan minda aku. Aku baru sahaja pulang dari MSU. Ingatkan jam semalam (pasal BERSIH) tapi alhamdulillah,setengah jam jer perjalanan dari Shah Alam ke Kuala Lumpur (kampung halamanku). Sejak aku masuk MSU, aku rasa macam banyak giler perubahan yang aku lalui. Alhamdulillah,semuanya yang menjadikan aku lebih matang, berdikari, dependable, pandai bajet (itu aku rase masih kurang mahir lg la), lebih berpesonaliti (agaknya). Banyak benda yang aku tak dapat lalui sebelum nie semuanya dapat aku buat di sini. Contohnya, nanti nak pergi ke rumah anak yatim, bila dengar hanan citer, aku rasa x sabar2 sangat..itu antara benda yang aku dah lama nak buat. Then nak pergi rumah orang tua minggu depan, memang tak sabar sangat.

Antaranya experiences aku baru – baru nie, aku dah makin dapat banyak kawan kat kelas tesl. Aku bersyukur sangat2. Second, aku punya purse hilanh, selamat la abg hairi (my counsellor) jumpa. Dia membebel la skejap kat telinga aku ni. Aku merayu kat dia jangan gtau mak..hmm mmg seram la experiences 2. Aku mmg tak perasanpurse 2 hilang sampaila abg hairi yang gtau. Yelar,hari2 aku pening kepala ngan ptptn yang mcm siot 2. Then.kawan2 lelaki kat sini ada yang panggil aku intan.. haha lawak giler. Nama intan 2 mcm ayu sanagt. Aku jadi mcm ayu pulak tetibakan. Hah, luper plak nk gtau,aku dah tukar hostel ker brunsfield..ok lah. Lg dekat ngan msu..

Dahla aku  rasa.penat la pulak nak tulis lg kan.till then,sayonara

assalamualaikum w.b.t

EPISODE 4

Waktu antara aku dan dia semakin suntuk.. Banyak lagi benda  yang aku nak ceritakan pada dia.. Banyak lagi benda yang aku nak tahu pasal dia. Tapi untuk mengelakkan aku dari semakin terluka, aku mengambil keputusan untuk menjauhkan diri pada dia. Untuk melarikan diri aku dari dunia realiti yang semakin lama semakin menyempitkan dada aku. Aku tahu aku tidak sapatutnya berbuat begitu, tapi ya tuhan,berilah aku peluang untuk mengenal  siapa diri aku yang sebenar benarnya tanpa dia. Aku mahu mencipta dunia baru dimana tiada dia dia dalam cerita aku itu. Bukan untuk membenci dia atau memulaukan dia.. Tapi untuk  merawat hati aku yang dah bertahun terluka, berdarah.......

Entah kenapa aku merasakan jarak antara kami semakin berjauhan walaupun tiada apa yang terjadi.. Antara aku dan awak pula memang rapat seperti biasa. Cuma bila mesej dengan awak, dia yang kelihatan di mata.. aku tidak tahu dan tidak mengerti masalah dia..kenapa seperti menjauhkan diri dari aku.. Aku bingung tapi bagi aku cukuplah dia melukai aku sedalam – dalamnya..

Episode 5

Seperti yang telah aku jangkakan dari 4 tahun yang lepas,aku dan dia semakin jauh. Susah untuk dicapai lagi. Dia dengan keasyikkan dunianya sendiri, aku pula telah lama menghilang. Mencari diri aku yang sebenarnya. Dimana perginya aku. Aku mengeluh. Melihat semula kisah  hidup aku satu persatu ibarat cerita didalam filem, dimana akhirnya si heroin akan menemui kebahagian yang dia pinta selama ini. Tapi bagi aku,adakah kebahagian aku akan benar – benar muncul.. aku menanti jawapan.. malah aku jadi seram memikirkannya kerana kebahagian aku adalah dia.. salah ke apa yang aku pinta selama ini?? adakah aku tidak layak untuk mendapatkan cinta dia?? Adakah dia mencintai aku sebagaimana  aku mencinta dia?????????????? Na mulla sotdon iyagi.. a story that i don’t know..

Setiap kali orang menanyakan kepada aku tentang dia, sememangnya aku tiada jawapan yang kukuh kerana seperti orang yang lain, juga hilang berita mengenai dia.. aku termenung melihat jeriji tingkap. Aku nampak titisan embun mengalir lemah ibarat aku, menangis tanpa henti akhirnya aku menjadi embun yayng lemah itu. Tetap mengalir tp......

assalamualikum warahmatullahhiwabarakatu

Keranamu sahabat,aku berubah....

Jika dulu aku seorang yang lalai dalam mengerjakan suruhan ALLAH, kini tak lagi.

Aku dahulukan suruhan Allah,sedikit demi sedikit aku jauhi kemungkaranNYA.

Ini bukanlah bermakna aku seorang yang suka melanggar perintah ALLAH,cuma aku seorang yang jahil,suka melengah-lengahkan waktu solat.Dalam sehari ,solatku x mencukupi 5 waktu,hanya 1 atau 2 waktu aje. Aku bukanlah seorang yang suka berpeleseran ataupun suka merayau ke sana sini. Kehidupan aku hanyalah di rumah dan di sekolah aje. Pagi berada di sekolah manakala petang berada di rumah. Begitu juga bila musim cuti sekolah menjelang,rumahlah tempatku beristirehat. Pendek kata kebanyakkan masaku dihabiskan di rumah. Rumahku Syurgaku.

Keranamu sahabat,aku berubah.....

Jika dulu aku seorang yang bahagia dengan kehidupan dunia,kini tak lagi.

Sebab ku tahu bahagia di dunia hanya sementara,akhirat jua kekal abadi.Kini kebahagiaan akhirat yang ku kejar,sedikit demi sedikit ku tinggalkan keseronokkan duniawi. Syurga ALLAH menjadi matlamatku kini.Solatku mencukupi 5 waktu sehari semalam dan disamping itu,aku alunkan irama merdu dari AL-QURAN setiap hari. Terasa damainya hati,ketenangan milikku jua. Dulu aku bahagia,kini aku lebih bahagia kerana hatiku telah ke serahkan kepada ALLAH. Cintaku kepadaNYA melebihi cintaku kepada diriku sendiri.Nikmatnya jatuh cinta kepada PENCIPTA,tiada tandingannya.

Keranamu sahabat,aku berubah.....

Jika dulu aku seorang yang gembira dengan apa yang aku miliki,kini tak lagi.

Sebab ku tahu gembira di dunia takakan membawaku kemana-mana,aku mahu gembiraku membawa diriku hingga ke syurga ALLAH. Aku sebagai insan biasa, serba kekurangan,ku sedar semua itu. Aku terlalu hina di sisiNYA. Seringkali ku alpa dengan nikmat dunia, aku tak mampu jadi yang terbaik..Aku menangisi hidupku yang sia-sia selama ini.Aku terlalu leka dengan nikmat dunia,sehingga ku terlupa pada kekasihku yang satu.Tapi DIA tak pernah buangkan aku jauh dari sisiNYA. DIA tetap sayangkan aku sebagai hambaNYA.

Keranamu sahabat,aku berubah....

Terima kasih sahabat, keranamu aku berubah. Sahabat yang sentiasa memberi peringatan padaku tentang solat. Solat yang wajib di tunaikan dengan segera.Sahabat yang se ntiasa mengingatkan aku dengan amaran-amaran ALLAH.Sahabat yang sentiasa memberi nasihat untukku tanpa jemu-jemu. Sahabat yang sabar melayani kerenahku.Moga ikatan ukhwah antara kita berkekalan sepanjang hayat

UNTUKMU SAHABAT..

Ya Allah,

Kau berkatilah ukhwahfillah kami....

Kami hanya insan-insan kerdil yang menumpang buat sementara di atas muka bumi ini..

DariMu kami datang dan dariMu jualah kami kembali...

Ya Allah,

Ukhwahfillah yang kami bina ini...

Adalah dengan izinMu...

Andai ada di antara kami yang terpesong....

Maka kembalikanlah kami ke jalan kebenaran...

Dan jalan yang Engkau redhai.....

Ya Allah,

Engkau titipkanlah dalam hati kami...

Sifat saling hormat-menghormati...

Saling sayang-menyayangi....

Saling kasih-mengasihi....

Agar ikatan ukhwahfillah ini...

Tidak akan terlerai....

Biarkan ianya tersimpul.....

Ya Allah,

Hanya takdirMu yang akan...

Memisahkan ikatan ukhwafillah....

Yang kami bina ini...

Andai itu telah tersurat...

Kami pasrah.....ya Allah

AMIN YA RABBAL 'ALAMIN.

Sahabat....

Seandainya hatimu terluka dan tercalar keranaku.......

Ampun dan maaf ku pohon........

Sahabat......

Terima kasih kuucapkan.....

Kerana memilihku sebagai salah seorang sahabatmu......

Kerana sudi luangkan masamu bersamaku......

Kerana sudi menjadi pendengar setiaku.....

Kerana sudi berkongsi suka dan duka denganku.....

Kerana sudi melayan setiap kerenahku....

Yang entah apa-apa.....

sahabat.....

Ketahuilah olehmu.....

Kau adalah di antara insan.....

Yang paling ku sayangi dan ku rindui.....

Hilangmu tak mungkin ada penggantinya.....

Sahabat.....

Sepimu tanpa sebarang berita.....

Membuatku tertanya-tanya.....

Apakah salahku kepadamu.....

Ku sedar siapa diri ini.....

Insan yang tak punya apa-apa....

Insan yang serba kekurangan.....

Sahabat.....

Seandainya takdir memisahkan kita.....

Ku pasrah segalanya.....

Andai itu telah tersurat.....

Maafkan aku wahai sahabat.....

Sesungguhnya aku amat menyayangi dan merinduimu.....

Kini dan selamanya.....

Sahabat.....

Doa dariku sentiasa mengiringi setiap langkahmu....

Dalam mengharungi liku-liku perjalanan hidup....

Moga kau beroeh kebahagiaan....